things are started off with a dream. a talk. a reality. it's too fast i can't catch my breath. and i'm not really sure if it's a good thing. need reassurances we're doing the right thing. psychedelico? u still there? or did u disappear leaving a spinning mesh cap and a puff of smoke?
holidays are over in 4.3.2.1. will i still be good? or does this coming year see tears and fears? i'm adjusting.
yeah. this entry's a bit cryptic.

"kissing a best friend is different from kissing a boyfriend"
The quote has been splitting my sides for THE longest time. Man, 16 seems so far away now. I must be really kental now and continuously still a prude cos i would never mutter those words out
what was i doing when i'm 16? erm yeah... i was trying on contacts and making goo-goo eyes at a boy too cool for school. See i had the huge pink glasses that should have never been sold to anyone under the age of a hundred (but apparently it was quite cool-looking back then) and hair that could have been mistaken for a bees nest. well you know how it would have turned out with skater boi. but u see, i'd learnt my ways and got contacts and grew my hair out so when i DID get the courage to make goo-goo eyes, i look pretty decent. So he was still clueless of my existence (as most skater boys are) but i did manage a goo-goo eye from his close friend so that was still a score.
3 years later, i snagged myself a skater boi of my own. to whom i shared my first kiss. and hopefully my last. Whom I've shared countless moments with sharing my "uncle scrooge " laughter and my amazon river full tears. my lorelai gilmore emotional baggage constantly shared and thrown around. i've shared a lot with this super-human boyfriend soulmate of mine and we've been through more than a handful of tumbling times.
I wouldn't know that kissing a boyfriend and a best friend is totally different. Cause both my boyfriend and my best friend share the same lips that i kiss each time i get.